Tuesday, April 30, 2013

{20w, Round 2}

Half way already.

Tiny Human number 2 is growing, I'm growing, my class is almost over and big sister will be two this weekend.  Some days I can't even remember what month it is.  Life is a whirlwind, and I'm just hanging on. I feel so blessed, a little overwhelmed, and a whole lot tired.

But not in a bad way.  It's a good thing.  I asked for this.  And I love this.

It feels like just a few days ago I was writing in this blog about our infertility treatments and struggles. Taking shots, traveling out of town for doctor appointments, feeling defeated and praying desperately for a child of my own.

And now she's about to turn two.

It still takes my breath away when I think how God chose to answer our prayers and entrust us with such an amazing gift after such a long struggle; it's almost more than I can comprehend.  We waited and prayed, we accepted His will-whatever it was-and He was faithful.  He showed us His mercy and grace in the form of a gorgeous, spunky little girl.

And then we wanted more.  Selfishly, we longed for another child to add to the unmerited favor we already had.  So with our hopes set high, we headed to New York longing for our final two embryos to complete our family, but God had other plans.

And now I'm half way through baking our second miracle.  A child that God chose to give us naturally, showing us that He really is the only one in control-the only one who can create life-no matter the circumstances.

Unlike science, He has no limits; and I'm so grateful.

Today we saw our littlest love on the big screen.  Watched her gentle, soft movements, made with perfectly formed limbs and extremities, and saw that precious, beating heart. Everything was as it should be. And as I sat there on that table, with my husband and daughter on my left and a second one growing strong and healthy under my heart, I thanked God for all of it.

For more undeserved blessing.  More unmerited favor. 

For more Grace.

But he giveth more grace.
James 4:6 (KJV)

13 comments:

  1. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! I can't fathom its been 20 weeks already!! and Scarlett is going to be 2! that's so crazy! Hope things settle down for you a bit, time sure is flying!

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  2. Cannot wait to meet this miracle!!!!

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  3. Love seeing updates from you! Can't believe you're halfway through your pregnancy already - AMAZING!! God is so good.

    Did I read 'her' soft, gentle movements correctly?..Does this mean you're having a precious girl?:)

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    1. I was wondering the same thing! :)

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    2. I thought I'd sneak that in there and see if anyone caught it; yes, it's another little girl! I wanted it to be a suprise again, but I had my way last time, so Daddy got to pick this time, and he chose to find out. He said this pregnancy was enough of a suprise already, and that we should know and be prepaired :)

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    3. eek!!! So excited for you to have another sweet girl:)

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  4. So glad you and the babe are doing well!! Time does fly by much too quickly. Enjoy the second half of your pregnancy :)

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  5. Yay!!! Congratulations on having a sweet baby girl - that's super exciting! Sisters! Ah I love it.

    Too funny that your dh wanted to find out and you didn't, it was the same for me and K this time and he also won. I'm glad though, it is nice to be able to prepare and start to think of your lo as a definite he/she:)

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  6. Girl??!! So excited! Cannot wait to see pictures of this little miracle!

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  7. Do you think you will have anymore kids?

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    1. As of right now, I would love too! But we won't be doing any more fertility treatments, so it will be up to whether or not God decides to bless us again. We've always wanted a big family!

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  8. Need a 'love' button for your last comment, Tabitha:) We're in the same boat..Exciting to think about what God may have in store!

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  9. You give me hope for having a second baby. I have faith that God will provide for our family. :)

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